// Past and Futures//

How is it that one person can have such an affect on someone else? How can supposedly “love” make you so blind that you lose all self respect. Suddenly it doesn’t matter how far you must go to make that one person notice you, to talk to you, to know that you exist! I find it sad that everyone is so insecure about themselves (me included) that we don’t realize our strengths, all we see are our flaws. Imagine what a difference every individual could make if they capitalized on their strengths. Instead we strongly plead without ourselves to become the societal image of beauty. Tall, skinny, smart, muscular, funny. Our need to be loved overshadows our individual strength to genuinely be happy by ourselves, to pursue amazing opportunities which you avoid because your mind makes you think that being in love is more important. I’m not saying everyone should just not be in a relationship. I think friends and even someone who is more than a friend is so important in the characteristic development of each individual but it’s so amazing to see the difference in an amazing person when they are so truly in “love” or so they think they are. It’s such a drastic difference that i don’t think its wrong to classify it almost bi-polar. Having been on either side at some point in time, I know how you rationalize everything you do or say not realizing that in actual fact you look borderline pathetic and are not giving yourself enough credit! As much as this sounds like a crappy motivational speech I believe that every relationship good or bad changes you in some way, most of the time even in the bad relationships you see things a lot clearer once you are able to distinguish from a facade of happiness and true clarity and serenity within yourself. At the end of the day you might not have a bf/gf or best friends or the happiest family life, the most important thing in life is to learn to be content by yourself. It really makes the world of difference when you know that nobody can affect your life as much as you.